Doing my part today

for the environment. I've been meaning to post about this but well...I just haven't been online. Lol.

I am currently in two science classes at work. I hated science when I was in school, so truthfully, this is torture for me. I do however, enjoy going over things we can do to conserve energy and save our environment. So here's one thing I'll start doing when I remember....

Instead of using Google, or other search engines that use white backgrounds...I will use "Blackle.com", where they use a black background. The black helps to save energy, as white uses more. Pretty cool huh? Plus it's not like everyone has a black background, so I'll be unique too. :) If I can get just one other person to use this search engine, imagine how much energy we save together. I truly do believe that even baby steps can make a world of difference. We as a people have GOT to start re-evaluating the things we do, because eventually, this world will be in some serious need of help. Why not start before it reaches that point???

Ahhhh nuts....

I got the job! Less than an hour and a half after my interview, I received a call saying I was chosen to fill the position and asking if I'd accept it. I started to panic and almost didn't answer my phone. I mean, I enjoy my current job, it's just a bit boring. I have WONDERFUL teachers, and what happens if I get over to the elementary school and get three horrible teachers? What if I don't like working with little kids anymore? I'm trying to stay positive, but dangit, what if I've messed up something good by trying to get something better? Eek! At least it's only going to be a 3 minute drive from my house to the school, and I get an extra half an hour each day. So I get to make more money and save more money in gas. The principal seems really nice though and there's less staff there. I guess I'll be finding out in a couple of weeks...my current school isn't releasing me for two weeks, so the 3rd will be my last day there.

Anyways, I just wanted to update everyone. :)

Not doing too good

on my promise to keep up with my blogging, am I? Things are just so boring around here, and I'm literally tired. 8 months of not working has made me lazy, and then with going back, I just haven't gotten into the groove yet. Then I ended up getting a cold...can't figure out which teacher gave it to me, since 2 of the 3 I work with are also sick. :(

Tomorrow I have an interview at an elementary school. I soooooooo want the position! The thought of dealing with little kids sounds really nice to me right now. Maybe I just need a change from the older ones. I don't know. Don't get me wrong, the kids I'm with this year are great, but it just gets old having to tell 12-15 year olds to stop acting like they're in 3rd grade. I might as well be working with the 3rd grade!

Anyways, I hope that things are going great with everyone, and if I haven't responded to your emails, don't get upset. I'm thinking about you all...I just have no motivation to get or stay online lately. Someone check me for a fever! Lol.

Hair cut!

I trimmed my hair...it's the shortest it's ever been. And I LOVE it!!! It's half way down my back now (took off about 4 inches), and I cut some long bangs to go with the trim. Oh yeah!!! Now all I have to do is dye it, but I'm scared to go that far yet. I actually wanted to take a little more off, but Mark begged me not to (he loves the long hair). So I let it slide...for now.

So right now I have half of it pulled back in a barret, and the rest is flowing over my shoulders. It looks cute, and boy do I miss wearing my hair like this! I used to wear it like a chola (mexican style), but after I went blonde and my roots started growing back, it just didn't look right. Now that the blonde is officially gone (Oh yeah, I'm a full blooded burnett again!!!), I can start wearing it like I used to. I thought time would fade that craziness, but I guess not because I'm so wanting to go back to what I looked like before Mark and I got together.

Lesson of the day....don't ever change who you are for someone else! I never wanted to be bleached blonde (just have streaks of blonde), but Mark liked blondes (hello Pamela Anderson) and I felt like he'd stop looking elsewhere if I went blonde. HA! After 4 years, things didn't change and I was miserable and got to hate the look. I am sooooooooooo glad to be back to normal. But I do want to dye it black (for me).

So anyways, I expect that this is just the beginning of a new and improved me. :)

I knew it was bound to happen!

Alright, before I elaborate on that...I had a VERY busy weekend. Saterday, we spent allllllll day cleaning. I mean...a trip to the dump, a trip to the recycle center, and of course the much loved house cleaning. Ack!

Sunday, we made a trip to Victorville, to buy some hay. Of course it was the same type of hay that almost killed me a couple of months ago (remember the asthma attack or whatever it was?). I tried to go to the mall and do a little clothes shopping (I.E. buy a bra and maybe a pair of pants) but they didn't open till 11. What? Since when does a mall open at 11 on a Sunday? Isn't the weekend a mall's most busy time? So I decided I didn't want to sit around and wait for them to open. Instead, we drove home and went to the store to buy items for our BBQ.

Did I forget to mention that on Saterday I invited Jack up to a BBQ? I didn't expect him to come, but we went and bought food just incase. A little after 5, we went back and asked if he wanted to come hang out for a bit, and he said yes. WOW, didn't see that one coming. He seemed really shy. But he showed up for about an hour and it was really nice getting to know him some. He showed me a picture on his cell of his 4 year old son...a total cutie! Of course the food was cold, and Mark over cooked some of it, trying to keep it warm until Jack got here, but all in all, it was pretty cool.

So that leads me to the title of this posting...I've been expecting it to happen, but was praying it wouldn't. I was told that my entire operation would be fully covered and I shouldn't have to get involved with the insurance claims or anything else. Well...guess what I got in the mail today??? From the anestesia department...Yep, a $1500 bill. Gads! I called my insurance company - who told me that they told the hospital to send the claim to my provider. I call my provider - and they told me that the insurance company should have sent them the claim, not have the hospital do it. So fed up, I called the hosptial and they told me that they sent a claim to both of them. Yep, there's nothing quite like getting the complete run around when money's involved. I'm not paying anything until I'm threatened with bill collector's!!!!!

Work still sucks! I always thought I'd enjoy being with the good kids over the bad ones, but dangit, now I have no one to talk to. These are the smart kids, so they don't really need any help. And the teachers have a handle on the kids, so I'm not needed to keep them in line. Oh hmmm....a perfect example of "be careful what you wish for".

It's been a while...

and a few of you are calling me on my "lack of blogging". Lol. I started back to work on Tuesday, and it's been tiring. My whole 3 hours a day is getting to me. HAHA. Actually just getting back into the swing of things is rough. And I haven't felt like getting online when I get home, so please don't take it personal if you haven't heard from me in a while. It's not you...it's me. :D

I've been spending a lot of my time assessing my life...the good things, the bad things, the things I wish I could have done differently, the things I can still do differently...just taking a really long, hard look at what/who I've become. So that's another reason I haven't been on here as much. I hope to get back to normal soon, and then I can catch you all up on my exciting life. Lol.

Post 300....It's about my birthday!!!

:) I had a really good one! Thanks to those of you, who wished me one. I even had someone who I barely know on MySpace remember. That made me feel pretty good. :)

I got to sleep in, and then not do anything as far as chores. Lol. We went to Sizzler's for lunch/dinner, and I had the best Country Fried Steak EVER! Yummmmm....then we came home, went back to see the horses (where Mark and I got into a water fight in their trough), came home and sat outside to dry off (it was a beautiful day), then came in and opened gifts/had cake. We finished the night by me winning a game of Rummy (mom, Marcus and Mark - you suck! HAHAHA) and watching the season premiere of America's Next Top Model. It was a good day!

My cake was yummy. Mark made it for me and forewarned me that it looked like a 2 year old scribbled on it. It tasted good and that's all I'm going to say. Lol. Actually, he did a really good job making it, it was exactly what I wanted and it was done in really pretty colors. It did however look like a 2 year old colored on it. :) I blew all the candles out in one blow (Marcus caught it on camera much to my horror - I will NOT be sharing the picture! lol), and now I'm waiting for my wish to come true. I'll post pictures of the cake later on, after I upload them into the computer.

So anyways, I had a great day and it's hard to believe that I'm 28 now. How the years have flown by...and I realize with each passing one, that I seem to feel less important. Weird, I always thought the exact opposite would be true. Life's funny that way I guess.

What a sucky day so far!

I was hoping that today would at least go smoothly, considering, but damnit! I had dreams about Jose last night. I don't hardly dream of him anymore but for some reason, last night HAD to be different. I don't get it!!!!!!! And no matter how good the dream, it always ruins my day! Not that last night's was too good, but just the fact that he was in it bothers me.

It's not fair!!! Why can't my conscience let things go, so I can get on with my life Jose free??? UUGH!

Update on doctor's.....

Just called and the girl played it off like they would never have told me my appointment was yesterday. (I would really like an angry face blowing steam smiley right now!!!)

So I asked her when my appointment is in their book, and she told me today. WHAT!?! There is no way that "September First" sounds anything like "September Second". Nope, not happy! It's a good thing that I called them though...and they better not make me sit in the lobby for 2 hours, like they did one time when they asked me to come back in later that day to get my blood pressure rechecked. How in the world, does it take 2 hours to take a 30 second pulse, when they are the ones that requested I come back in? And stupid me...I sat there and waited.

It's going to be one of those days! God help the person who ends up rubbing me wrong!!!

This will be the last time!

I am officially changing my doctor! I can not stand Dr. Basa! If you are in the Barstow area, I highly discourage you from going to her!

I called them 2 weeks ago and made an appointment. One of the girls made it for September 1st at 2:00pm. I knew this was a holiday but I figured that they must be open anyways. I even asked her "That's a Monday, right?" to verify, and she said "Yes". So I show up there 10 minutes early yesterday and guess what! They're closed. I was soooo mad! If someone made a mistake and made the appointment for the wrong day, then they should have had the courtesy to call me and reschedule. I can't wait until they open, to give them a call.

I'm glad to say that this will be my last time going there, and I am only doing it to get permission to return to work. After that, I have to notify my insurance that I want to change doctor's. I am sooooo fed up with this place. I know that I've complained about it numberous times, but this was the last straw. Whenever I go in there, the doctor herself never remembers me (even if I saw her 4 days earlier). I have to ask for them to update my prescriptions, which always takes them weeks because they never call them in (turns out they don't hand you over one of those doctor's prescriptions anymore). I have to specifically ask them to relook at something on my chart, and she never hears what I say (and asks me something right after I said it) because she was too busy not paying attention.

I thought I was being too hard on her, but damnit, my surgeon who lives almost 2 hours away remembers me every single time I go in to see him (months inbetween). He knows exactly where I live, what he's done to me, and what he needs to do...he's prepared. Now he may read through the charts the night before...but I always feel like I have a personal relationship with him. And he must see HUNDREDS of WOMEN inbetween the times that I see him. HE WORKS OUT OF TWO HOSPITALS!!!!! But he even knows me by name when he sees me in his lobby. Granted I'm sure Dr. Basa sees a lot more patients in a day than he does, but her and her office assitants are so freakin scatter-brained, I'm shocked they are still in business.

Just take deep breathes and relax........